How can an inanimate object hold so much power over my emotions? How can a piece of metal dictate my mood for the day? Why do I let it? When I began my weight-loss journey, I promised that I would only get on the scale once a week. I have failed miserably at keeping that promise. Yesterday, I weighed in at 174, a 1-lb. loss from last week. This morning, I hopped on the scale and saw 175.5!!!! What the hell???? How did I gain 1.5 pounds in 1 day?? I ate very healthy all day. Of course, my mood for the day is now completely shot. I begin to doubt the diet and whether it is working. How could I GAIN weight by eating the same way I've been eating to lose weight?
I am going to move the scale into our spare bathroom tonight. That way I don't see it every time I use our bathroom. If I want to weigh myself, I'd have to go get it. Rationally, I know that I shouldn't be weighing myself every day, but I'm afraid not to. I'm afraid that without seeing the number every day, I will actually fall off the wagon. I am afraid of the number I'll see on Monday morning since I've had no daily weigh-ins to give me a good "prediction". I due for AF at the end of next week, so I'm already dreading my next weigh-in.
Losing weight is so very difficult mentally. I think about it constantly. I'm so impatient watching the pounds come off so slowly even though I know it's healthier and that I'll probably keep the weight off longer. I look at my closet and long for the day when some of my old clothes fit. I'm trying to stay positive but it gets tough sometimes. Today is just one of the "tough" days.
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Laura- listen I just want to say I jump on the scale everyday, it's just our human nature to do so. Big Hugs for that 1.5 lb jump. Like I've told Sheri, (which Dave tells me when I'm complaining about my weight) try to go poop and see if it helps! LOL
I really admire you for sticking to your diet. I still haven't started mine yet. I was fitting back into my clothes but now I do but barely. Once I stopped breastfeeding boom the weight came back. Now I have gained about 10 lbs in 2 months! I haven't had AF in 50 days now so maybe once that happens it'll help some. I don't know, I really feel like a failure at the moment!
Keep up the good work!
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