Crazy Lady

I have so many things I've been wanting to blog about, but I find that I'm just never in the mood.

This pregnancy has turned me into a CRAZY LADY (yes, I used capital letters!). I don't remember ever feeling this way when I was pregnant with Ethan. I am either very sad and emotional, or I feel bitchy and mean, and everything that anyone says rubs me entirely the wrong way.

One of the things that's been bothering me is that I just don't feel "special" this time around. I know it's silly and selfish of me to want to be treated specially just because I'm pregnant, but I do. This is my last time being pregnant, and I want to enjoy it. Instead, I find myself struggling to take care of Ethan in the evenings when I am exhausted, keep up with piles and piles of laundry, and basically take care of a billion other things. My Mom scolded me the other day for carrying a load of laundry down the stairs, but who else is going to do it for me?? Unfortunately, Joe has not been around much in the evenings to give me a hand with things like that or with Ethan.

Now, I have to go off on a bit of a tangent here and say how wonderful Joe is when he IS around. He is an extremely attentive and loving husband, and a great father. When he's home on weekends, he'll help me clean or he'll even send me and Ethan to do some errands so he can clean. He's always willing to run out to grab me a Dairy Queen Blizzard (something my hips, ass, and thighs don't need, but that's another story entirely!) or whatever my latest craving might be. It's just that lately he's not around much, leaving me to shoulder most of the work during the week. I don't necessarily resent him because I know he's working hard to support his family, but I am TIRED. Being pregnant with #2 (or more for that matter) is entirely different than #1. With #1, I could come home and put my feet up for however long I wanted to. There was no little voice asking me for juice every 2 seconds. The fatigue is much greater this time around, and I've been queasy every day since about 4 weeks.

I have no right to complain about ANYTHING! I have a fantastic husband, a wonderful little boy, and I'm expecting another baby. What is it about pregnancy that turns sweet (okay, maybe I'm normally a little less than 100% sweet) into crazy ladies?? When will it end??

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On another note, I had my first OB appointment last Tuesday with an ultrasound. The baby has now officially been nicknamed Elmo. Elmo has a heartbeat that was 166 bpm and was measuring 8 weeks. I go for my first trimester screen in 2 weeks, so I will have another ultrasound as well as some bloodwork. It's hard to believe that I am already 9weeks, 2 days pregnant. The time is flying by so quickly already. I know I should be thankful because towards the end, it's going to drag and drag.

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Our house is officially on the market. We've had 4 showings in less than a week, so we're hoping that's a good sign. We are planning on having an open house next weekend. The offer that we put in on another house was accepted and the closing date is scheduled for June 29th. Joe and I are both stressed because we went in non-contingent on the offer, meaning if we don't sell our house by June 29th, we'll be paying double mortgages until our house finally sells. So please cross your fingers that we sell our house quickly!

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Ethan is absolutely amazing. He is a very comical little boy, and what makes it even more funny is that he KNOWS he's funny. I think he has a future as a class clown, just like his Daddy. He is talking in complete sentences now, and we're trying to teach him colors and numbers. He insists that everything is yellow! I haven't really told him much about the new baby yet. I figured I would wait until my belly starts to get a lot bigger. I did tell him that Mommy is going to have a baby and right now it's in her belly. I mentioned once to him one of the names that Joe and I are tossing around if it's a girl, and now he calls the baby that all the time. Maybe he knows something we don't??

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I think it's time to end this post before the CRAZY LADY comes back!