Admitting Defeat

I realize I haven't updated my blog in a very long time. I wish I had a good excuse, but it's really just because I haven't really felt like it. I should be using my blog during the rough times, but I find myself doing the opposite and staying away.

Joe, Ethan, and I went to Boston this past weekend to see my new nephew Garrett who is 6 weeks old, and to attend my other nephew's (Dylan) 2nd birthday party. Joe and I drove up, and my parents flew up from Florida. It was nice to have the entire family together, and I was also able to see all three of my grandparents and some old friends that I haven't seen in quite some time. It was a bit rough on Ethan to deviate so much from his routine but he was a good boy for the most part. I think he's glad to be home and back in his own crib though!

Joe and I stayed at a Hilton in one of the suburbs of Boston. On the first morning, Joe went down to bring us up some breakfast. When he came back, he said "I swear I saw a guy downstairs that looked just like Ty Pennington from Extreme Makeover Home Edition." We laughed about it and that was the end of that. On Saturday night when we got back to our hotel, there were several guys sitting in the bar eating dinner. One of them got into the elevator with us, and he was wearing an Extreme Makeover Home Edition jacket. Joe looked at him and said "I KNEW it was Ty". The guy was like "Yup, it was." Too bad Joe didn't get an autograph! They were working on a house in Medfield, MA, and they did the big reveal on Sunday. I am going to have to check the listings and see when that episode is going to air.

While I was up in Boston, I had a heart-to-heart with my Mom about the irrational anxiety I have been experiencing for the past several months. She and Joe have both noticed how much I have changed and how I am paralyzed by the overwhelming anxiety and fear. I agreed that it was time to seek some help, especially since I have been experiencing terrible headaches for the past few weeks.

I took today off to unpack, get some rest, and go to the doctor's. She was wonderful and really listened to me. She made me feel like my problem was real and that she understood my fears. I am going to be taking a B complex vitamin every day to help with the stress, and she is putting me on a low dose of Zoloft to ease the anxiety. She feels that the headaches are caused by the excessive tension I have, but I am to follow-up with my primary care physician in a few weeks so that we can determine if the headaches are better or if I need further testing. I am a bit ashamed that I need medication. After all, what would wacky Tom Cruise say about that? LOL What a freak....

On the bright side, my parents have accepted an offer on their house in Florida, and they are set to close on November 3 if all goes well. They still have several obstacles, and we are all praying that things go smoothly. They are required to have the roof inspected and to have a mold inspection. With all the damage they suffered from Hurricanes Frances and Jeanne last fall, they are concerned that they might have to cough up a bunch of money to repair the roof or to get rid of any mold. They are set to move into their new house RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER on November 5th. I am so excited that I will have my parents nearby, and that Ethan will grow up with his grandparents so much a part of his life. My parents will also be able to travel to my brother's house and see his 2 boys much more easily since they will only be 8 hours away.

Joe is still working INSANE hours. We keep hoping that things will slow down, but it doesn't appear that they will. We don't fight about it like we used to. I honestly think that we are both just too tired to fight. We live for the weekends and struggle through the week. Sigh....

Ethan is trying so very hard to crawl. He has been rocking on all four's for weeks now. He can move his knees but he can't figure out how to work his arms. I guess one of these days he will just do it. He is trying to pull himself up on things, and he has sat up from the crawling position a few times, although I think it was probably an accident! He is eating solids three times a day now, and we give him Fruit Puffs and a sippy cup a few times a day to get him used to it. While we were in Boston, he had a cracker (which he LOVED), a few pieces of pumpkin donut, a few noodles, and some icing from his cousin's birthday cake.

I know I haven't been very good about posting on everyone's blogs, but I promise you that I have been keeping up with you all so keep posting.