Wanting to Pull My Hair Out!

When will the madness end?? Joe called several more childcare providers that were given to him by our local Childcare Choices agency. Most of them had no openings. I told him that I had found several that we needed to call, and he started insisting that he had already called them all, even though the original numbers he called weren't even with him at the time. One of the listings wasn't in a very good area, and I told him that I didn't want the kids there, and he got all bent out of shape saying that now I was putting all these different criteria on him, etc. He got mad and started yelling at me and then ended the conversation by saying that he was turning everything over to me and I could handle it all! Now THAT'S gonna help my already rapidly increasing blood pressure, and the stress levels on the baby.

This issue is causing so much stress and now it's leading to fighting and problems between me and Joe. I wish a simple solution would jump out at us so we could move on and be happy about the baby. It seems to be casting such a dark shadow over everything. The more we fight about it, the more I feel guilty about having a second child, because I start thinking that maybe we can't afford it. My excitement about having two children has been replaced by anxiety and fear, and now stress over finding a daycare for them.

I found a local mommies group that has a website and there is a forum designed for working moms. I have posted a message in the hopes of getting some recommendations from other working moms about where might be a great place for the kids. We'll see what kinds of responses I get, if any.

I don't think I ever realized it would be this hard. Add this issue to working 45 hours per week, commuting a total of 5 hours per week, taking care of Ethan in the evenings, and being 24 weeks pregnant, and I have just about had it. Ethan is 3 weeks shy of 2 and 1/2 and boy, is he acting out! He is still generally a great kid and well behaved, but he has started becoming defiant and acting out, mostly with me since I think he knows I am more of a pushover than Daddy. I know it's normal, I know it's a phase, but it still stresses me out after working all day and being tired from the pregnancy.

AGGHH, Calgon....take me away!