I mean that. I am so crazy irritable. The mood swings are ridiculous, and if you would ask Joe, he would say, frequent. I find myself being annoyed at everything and everyone; feeling like no one understands me; and wanting to crawl into bed and just sleep and sleep and sleep. If this is pregnancy hormones, it's going to be a long 15 weeks!!!
The worst part is that besides the whole daycare issue, I honestly have no truly valid reason for being Ms. Bitch. I am making mountains out of molehills about everything. We had a terrible thunderstorm Saturday night which woke Ethan up. By the time we got him settled back down, it was after midnight. Between midnight and 6 a.m., I was up to pee 4 times. When Ethan woke up, he was kicking and banging the wall in his room. Joe slept on beside me and never moved. After several minutes of lying there, I got up with Ethan and took him out to the living room. 45 minutes later, Joe comes out and doesn't say "thanks for getting up with him" or "how long have you two been up?" Instead, he goes to lie down on the couch as I'm feeding Ethan his breakfast. Annoying? YES! But I let it eat at me and set the tone for the entire day. From then on, I was highly irritated with everything that was going on in the house. Joe got poop on his leg while changing Ethan's pull-up, and he started saying "Godammit" and yelling for help. That irritated me even more...it's poop. Wash it off and move on with life. My reactions to things are so over the top, and I know it's pushing Joe away because he (rightly) feels like he can't do anything right.
Is this hormones, stress, exhaustion, a combination of any of those things?? All I know is that if I can't stand myself, how do I expect my husband and the rest of my family to support me and want to be with me? Any suggestions on how I pull myself out of this funk and become a bit happier and more content? I'm sure Joe would thank you a billion times!
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I hope you find a daycare soon. It is extremely hard to find somene who can take 2 or more if you work. Alot of it is due to age restrictions, the can probably take a toddler but their infant spots are all taken so it's a battle to find one with both slots open. Once we figured I'd only make like $3 a hour after having 2 kids in daycare, I quit. lol
Sorry J doesn't seem to want to help much either! That's not any fun! Dave helps but it doesn't help if he's not around.
I dont have any good`advice to give you...too many times I am like that too and I don`t have the pregnancy hormones to blame....
Just wanted to send you a cyberhug and hope that you will find a daycare soon.
The only advice I have to offer at a time like this....is please let the people around you know what is going on. A lot of times having Joe come up and hold you for a minute after somehting like that, can turn your mood around. Oryou can take yourself out of the situation, tell him you need to take a shower,then take a hot shower and look through some old pictures! I can almost bet...it will be hard to stay upset looking through memories! :)
The main thing though is making sure that you keep communicating. It will bring Joe closer instead of make him feel left out and pushed away.
:p Oh, I dont know! LOL :)
Good luck hun! *squeezes*
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