I feel stronger today. I cried and cried all day yesterday, and I woke up this morning and looked into Ethan's eyes, and I felt so sad that I had to take him to daycare again. But I got him dressed and fed him, and off we went. I spent about an hour there with him today, and he was having fun laying on his back playing and talking. He fell asleep in his crib, so I left, and I didn't shed a tear today. I was so proud of myself! I know that I will have good days and bad days, but I hope that it gets easier as I see how well taken care of he is and how much is teachers enjoy him. How could they not?? He is such a lovable little baby.
When I left daycare, I went to my appointment at the Wellness Center for blood pressure and weigh in. I am going to update my weight stats because they pretty much forbade me to use my scale at home! LOL I am only allowed to weigh in at the center once a week now, because I was weighing at home and obsessing over the number every time! Their scale weighs higher than mine, but I'll just have to live with that.
So here is my update:
Thursday, May 5: 204
Tuesday, May 10: 198
After I left there, I went to the YMCA and walked the treadmill for 35 minutes. Now, I need to focus on getting a shower, cleaning, and doing a load of laundry before I go pick Ethan up. It's a gorgeous day so I have all the windows open and the sun is shining in. I am allowing only positive thoughts to linger in my head today. I know that I need to make the best of the daycare situation for the time being. Maybe someday I will be able to be a stay-at-home mom, but not right now. I also know that I need to stay positive about my weight loss and exercise efforts. I am not usually a positive person, so this will be hard! But I'll try!
Today, I am thankful that my friend Sara's agreement was approved and her adoption process can move forward!!!
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2 comments:
Laura- I'm glad it was a bit easier to take him today. It does get less painful but you'll probably still have that heartache about doing it. I know I didn't enjoy taking Alexzandra to daycare but I trusted her sitter and knew she was being cared for well which helped me cope.
You're doing great on your weight loss! For an added motivation you should do a weight ticker for BBC! I plan to do that as soon as I get this little guy out of me. I'm just about up to 200 lbs now! Yikes! It is quite depressing but then just look at that beautiful little guy you have and think, it was all worth it :)
I am glad today went better than yesterday!
As for your weight loss - keep positive!
Love
Sheri
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