Thanks Rhonda!
So, I have been tagged. So here we go! Six things that are weird/strange/unusual about me...
1) I love the smell of gasoline. I love going to fill up and smelling the gas fumes coming out of the pump.
2) I like John Denver's music. *blushes* Yup, I do. My husband will NEVER let me live this one down. He makes fun of me all the time for it, but I know all the words to "Follow Me", "Country Roads", "Grandma's Featherbed", etc. I even saw him in concert when I was small (my parents like him too!)
3) I never stand at the sink when I am brushing my teeth. I walk around and do other things at the same time! I'll brush my teeth with one hand while putting away clothes or something with the other.
4) I cannot stand for a wet shower curtain or liner to touch me when I'm in the shower. It simply grosses me out!
5) I enjoy watching QVC. I've never ordered anything, but man, can I get all caught up in "Today's Special Value"!
6) Just like Rhonda, I hate beer. I absolutely cannot stand any kind of beer at all.
Everyone I know has been tagged already, so I'll just look forward to reading about everyone else's quirks!
Monday, April 17, 2006
Sunday, April 09, 2006
Mommy Guilt
Any other first-time Moms out there suffering from Mommy guilt? I seem to suffer from this almost every waking moment of my day. The guilt begins at 6:30 a.m. when I have to wake a precious bundle of sleep from his crib so that I can dress him and give him some cheerios before rushing out the door at 6:55 a.m.
Guilt trip #2: I kiss Ethan goodbye and turn for the door knowing that I have already stayed 10 minutes too long. I see him watch me leave, and my heart still feels heavy, even after doing the same routine for the past 11 months.
Guilt trip #3: I am 7 minutes late picking Ethan up because of an accident on the highway. My fault? Nope, but the guilt is still there. Will Ethan know the difference between 5 p.m. and 5:07 p.m.? Nope, but I do, and the guilt threatens to swallow me up.
Guilt trip #4: I walk into daycare and see Ethan playing with some toys. He looks up at me, grins, and immediately begins to fuss until I rush over and pick him up for a hug. This is the absolute best part of my day, but again, the guilt rushes in because I realize how much he's missed me.
Guilt trip #5: The weekend rolls around, and I need to shop for a dress for a wedding that's in 5 weeks. Daddy is more than willing to take care of Ethan, but the Mommy guilt insists that Ethan will know that I am not around and miss me. The Mommy guilt overtakes me as I am trying on dresses and I start to rush so that I can get home as soon as possible.
There are so many more cases of Mommy Guilt in my day-to-day life. I know, on an intellectual level, that my mother or Joe is more than capable of taking care of Ethan. And I know that Ethan absolutely loves both his daddy and his gramma. Then what's the problem? I've asked myself this same question countless times. As a Mom who works full-time outside the home, I get very little time during the week to spend with my son. Therefore, I feel like I need to be with him every minute as if to make up for lost time. I don't want to miss any more belly laughs, first steps, and smiles than I already do.
I need to work right now. At some point, Joe and I hope that things will be different. I know that we are making the best decisions for our family. I know that Ethan loves his teachers at daycare, and he loves his friends. He gets to play outside and fingerpaint and sing songs and read. Most days, I am okay with that. Is it the ideal situation? No, but it's the one that works right now. Some days, like today, I dread the coming week and the time I will never get back with Ethan. I try to make each second count when we do spend time together, but the Mommy Guilt is always there, right underneath the surface, just waiting to emerge.
Guilt trip #2: I kiss Ethan goodbye and turn for the door knowing that I have already stayed 10 minutes too long. I see him watch me leave, and my heart still feels heavy, even after doing the same routine for the past 11 months.
Guilt trip #3: I am 7 minutes late picking Ethan up because of an accident on the highway. My fault? Nope, but the guilt is still there. Will Ethan know the difference between 5 p.m. and 5:07 p.m.? Nope, but I do, and the guilt threatens to swallow me up.
Guilt trip #4: I walk into daycare and see Ethan playing with some toys. He looks up at me, grins, and immediately begins to fuss until I rush over and pick him up for a hug. This is the absolute best part of my day, but again, the guilt rushes in because I realize how much he's missed me.
Guilt trip #5: The weekend rolls around, and I need to shop for a dress for a wedding that's in 5 weeks. Daddy is more than willing to take care of Ethan, but the Mommy guilt insists that Ethan will know that I am not around and miss me. The Mommy guilt overtakes me as I am trying on dresses and I start to rush so that I can get home as soon as possible.
There are so many more cases of Mommy Guilt in my day-to-day life. I know, on an intellectual level, that my mother or Joe is more than capable of taking care of Ethan. And I know that Ethan absolutely loves both his daddy and his gramma. Then what's the problem? I've asked myself this same question countless times. As a Mom who works full-time outside the home, I get very little time during the week to spend with my son. Therefore, I feel like I need to be with him every minute as if to make up for lost time. I don't want to miss any more belly laughs, first steps, and smiles than I already do.
I need to work right now. At some point, Joe and I hope that things will be different. I know that we are making the best decisions for our family. I know that Ethan loves his teachers at daycare, and he loves his friends. He gets to play outside and fingerpaint and sing songs and read. Most days, I am okay with that. Is it the ideal situation? No, but it's the one that works right now. Some days, like today, I dread the coming week and the time I will never get back with Ethan. I try to make each second count when we do spend time together, but the Mommy Guilt is always there, right underneath the surface, just waiting to emerge.
Monday, April 03, 2006
Walking, but Not Talking
My little man is now walking. He is still a bit unsteady and wobbly at times, but he is walking! When did my baby become a little PERSON? I can already see that he is going to be a very strong-willed (aka stubborn) child, just like his daddy and me. And he has such a goofy personality (also just like his daddy and me)!
Ethan still has not said any words, although his babble definitely sounds more like "talking" now than before. He is spending the week at daycare in the toddler room instead of the infant room. It's just about time for him to move up in the world! If he does well in the toddler room, he will be moved there permanently next week. Time is just moving way too quickly for me!
I am still sticking with Weight Watchers! At weigh-in on Sunday, I had lost .6...I was a bit disappointed, but AF is due at the end of the week, and I'm hoping that has something to do with my tiny loss. In the 4 weeks since joining, I have lost 4.8 pounds. It's a small amount, but it's still a step in the right direction, and I am NOT QUITTING! I know that this program will work if I stick with it. I might not lose every week (heck, some weeks I might even gain), but I know that I can do this. I NEED to do this.
Joe and I had a tough week last week since we didn't see much of each other. Joe worked a few late nights again, but we are hoping this week is better. The evenings are so much more relaxing and fun when he is home. We're able to be a "real" family that eats together, plays together, etc. And Ethan eats great only when Joe feeds him so it is a HUGE help when Joe is home early enough to give Ethan his dinner.
Does anyone know if children go through a growth spurt around 13-14 months? Ethan has been napping quite a bit lately, ever since he started walking more actually. Maybe it takes so much energy to walk that he is more tired? I'm not complaining (a sleeping toddler is a good toddler!), just wondering!
Ethan still has not said any words, although his babble definitely sounds more like "talking" now than before. He is spending the week at daycare in the toddler room instead of the infant room. It's just about time for him to move up in the world! If he does well in the toddler room, he will be moved there permanently next week. Time is just moving way too quickly for me!
I am still sticking with Weight Watchers! At weigh-in on Sunday, I had lost .6...I was a bit disappointed, but AF is due at the end of the week, and I'm hoping that has something to do with my tiny loss. In the 4 weeks since joining, I have lost 4.8 pounds. It's a small amount, but it's still a step in the right direction, and I am NOT QUITTING! I know that this program will work if I stick with it. I might not lose every week (heck, some weeks I might even gain), but I know that I can do this. I NEED to do this.
Joe and I had a tough week last week since we didn't see much of each other. Joe worked a few late nights again, but we are hoping this week is better. The evenings are so much more relaxing and fun when he is home. We're able to be a "real" family that eats together, plays together, etc. And Ethan eats great only when Joe feeds him so it is a HUGE help when Joe is home early enough to give Ethan his dinner.
Does anyone know if children go through a growth spurt around 13-14 months? Ethan has been napping quite a bit lately, ever since he started walking more actually. Maybe it takes so much energy to walk that he is more tired? I'm not complaining (a sleeping toddler is a good toddler!), just wondering!
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