Update

I am still not sure what's up with my current cycle. I never got a + on the OPK. I stopped testing on Saturday (CD14). Joe and I dtd on CD7, 9, 10, 11, 13, and 14. We haven't dtd since, so if I have a short luteal phase, then we probably missed it this month. I am on CD18 today. I am not at all hopeful that we caught the egg. I feel like I don't really "know" when I'm O'ing. I thought the OPKs would help, but they only confused me more! Maybe temping isn't a bad idea?

I have gained back about 4 pounds of what I lost on Jenny Craig. Gotta love the holidays and my sheer lack of willpower! I am trying to get back on track, but it might not happen until after New Year's.

Ethan is sick again with a nasty cold that my brother's family brought with them from Massachusetts. Hopefully he gets over it quickly. He had a blast on Christmas though, and he kept saying "Wow" when he would open a gift and see what it was. He got a Geo Trax train set that he loves, a bunch of cars and trucks, and a suitcase for traveling with his name on it. Santa was good to him, that's for sure!

Not much else to report...I'm so discouraged about TTC. I know it will happen, but I feel like I am on a time schedule since I am 31 and will be 32 when the next baby is finally born, if I conceive pretty soon. I'm so impatient and I hate waiting once I set my mind to something.

Need Help in my TTC Journey!

I promise to update my blog soon, but first I need some help...Sabrina, this means you since you have so much TTC knowledge!! LOL

I am on my second cycle off BCP. My first cycle was 27 days, the second was 25 days. This cycle I decided to start using OPKs on CD9. I have been doing 2 OPKs per day: one around 1 p.m. and one in the evening between 7 and 10 p.m. I am on CD12 and I have not gotten a positive OPK yet. Does that seem right? Joe and I have bd'ed on CD7, 9, 10, and 11 so far. Should I keep using the OPKs and keep bd'ing every night until a few days after I finally do get a positive OPK? I need guidance!! I feel like a total newbie at the whole TTC process!

If I have another 25-day cycle, I would O around CD11 (yesterday), but I didn't get a positive OPK. If I have a 27-day cycle, I would O around CD 13, which is tomorrow, but I didn't get a positive OPK at all today. HMMM? What the heck? Insight anyone???

Feeling Blue

I'm blue and out of sorts the past few days. At last week's weigh-in, I was up 4.2 pounds! UGGH! I know I slipped big time during the long Thanksgiving weekend, but I didn't realize I had messed up THAT badly! It's been a rough week trying to get back on track, so I am not sure what tonight's weigh-in will bring. Hopefull, I am down at least a few pounds.

This was my first cycle TTC #2. My first cycle off the BCP was 27 days, so this cycle, we dtd on CD10, 11, 12, 13, 14, and 15. I have NO idea if (when) I ovulated. On Thursday night (CD15), I had a lot of twinges in my right side and some achy lower back pain, so I am not sure if that was when I ovulated. I HATE playing the guessing game. I didn't use any OPKs this cycle because it was only our first one. I plan on using them next cycle to try to pinpoint when I actually ovulate. I am not feeling at all hopeful about being pregnant this cycle. I foolishly had my hopes up because I wanted a Christmas BFP. I had dreams about telling my family on Christmas Day. I have ZERO symptoms right now. Not sure how long it would take to feel symptoms if I just ovulated on Thursday?

Now I remember how much I hate the whole TTC process...the way it screws with your mind and messes with your emotions. I hate the constant analyzing and obsessing over every little thing in the 2ww. I hate how you start each cycle with such a feeling of hope and then you end it with disappointment. I got pregnant with Ethan relatively quickly (6 months), and even those 6 months were a roller coaster. I wanted the second time around to be easy and more relaxed but I can see that it's not going to happen quite that way.

I am having an ugly Monday...I am tired, sad, and my face is broken out beyond belief. No amount of concealer could help me today! I am dreading weigh-in tonight and the number I will see on the scale. I am sad because my baby is almost 2.

Geesh, if you got this far, I commend you...what a depressing, pity party post! I'll be back when things start looking up!